Today marks a year form my brother, Mike's, death. I have struggled with regret, as I think is normal in grief, and have had my amazing husband to speak truth to me when I am in that place of darkness. That said, there are things I wish I had said to my brother.
First and foremost I wish I had told him that I was for him. I fear that in my effort to give him good advice, he didn't hear me being on his side, wanting wholeness and healing for him, and peace. I wish I had said the words, "I am for you and your good."
I have actually lost my train of thought - it could be the fever raging in my body - probably the swine flu, I am sure. So with that little tidbit, I will be off for today.
I loved my brother, and he loved me. I miss him terribly. I hope he knew that I was for him even though I never said it.
I won't make that mistake again.
5 comments:
Heather,
I do not know what Mike felt, but I do what what I feel. Just this morning, I found a card from you from 2005. And it reminded me of my friend who is FOR ME. I daresay, Mike knew that, too.
Love you! Praying for your fever to go away.
Holly
Praying for you, Heather.
I love you Heather, and prayed for you and your mom and your family on Saturday. Still praying.
Marian :)
I didn't have the honor of truly knowing your brother Heather, but being a brother myself and knowing YOU, I truly feel your brother knew and loved you in ways only he will be able to tell you himself someday.
God bless sweet daughter.
Dad F.
Love you, Heather. Thanks for posting this. I will be praying for you, and I miss you!
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